The Messenger

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It’s a world of laughter
A world of tears
It’s a world of hopes
And a world of fears
There’s so much that we share
That it’s time we’re aware
It’s a small world after all

There is just one moon
And one golden sun
And a smile means
Friendship to ev’ryone
Though the mountains divide
And the oceans are wide
It’s a small world after all

It’s a small world after all
It’s a small world after all
It’s a small world after all
It’s a small, small world

by: Sherman Brothers

Woooohhhh!!!!!!!!

I never thought that I would still be “found” despite of evading people. So here I am, in this small office, doing stuffs, and looking for some files – when I accidentally opened a folder of pictures.

The contents were puzzling. Not because the images are abstract pieces but personal pictures of someone I know, but doesn’t know me. A sister of a college instructor. In my office laptop. What the heck.

At first I was thinking that, maybe it’s not her. Maybe they just look alike. And then I saw a Word Document that says “HRM”. I opened the file and saw the name. Good heavens! So, siya nga yun talaga.

My mind’s racing by that time, on how the hell happened that his sister’s pictures would be stored in this laptop? It was then that I remembered a person who works in this place with the same name as my instructor’s father. I was like – could it be him? Yeah right. After asking around, I was more than sure that it is really his dad.

Goodness. I felt that I was doomed.

But again, this place may not be ideal for others, but my work is as clean as a white paper. I’m doing no illegal nor immoral.

I guess, I’m just afraid to be judged – as a budding careerwoman.

Personal Note:

I’m missing my baby – she’s on vacay.

I must say, I was impressed how things went on since I’ve abandoned this blog site for quite some time. I wasn’t really blogging thru wordpress back then. – I was using Friendster’s, but thanks to brownmestizo (@ brownmestizo.net – check out his brown thoughts), I’m now using a better service.A former college mate notified me that Kapitan’s blog is still existing – in fact, it’s blooming with love (I guess he is inlove, again. Nice.). Last semester, we have created our wordpress accounts so we could publish our articles for the college’s official publication, but instead, it became a personal blog for us. I can’t speak for others, but mine has been like that since then.  For other impressive things, I get to try a tablet drawing pad. Uh, whatever it is called. The one graphic artists use for doodling? That’s it. It’s sooo cute. And pretty amazing. Not that I’m much of an artist. I’ll find a use for it.Another impressive thing – I’m using a Mac laptop for the meantime, here at work. This goddamn machine costs about 100,000 pesos and so cool. A little bit disorienting, but since the interface is Vista-like, it only took a while for me to play with it. Very interactive and great for doing multimedia stuff. I think I’ll buy one when I can afford it.  So, as my closing impressive thing to mention – the sunrise this morning. I noticed that today’s sunrise is much earlier than the other days, and at 9.30am it’s already scorching hot. Lucky I have my purple umbrella with me. Why purple? It symbolizes power. Hahaha.Impressive day, isn’t it? 

When I was a fresh high school grad, I didn’t know what course I should take. My parents were insurance agents at that time, thus my exposure to sales and marketing is incredibly great. But I’m not fond of selling things. I’m more of a shopper. Hahaha.I was into computers at that time, chatting in Stone Age MIRC, using beta versions of Internet Explorer, have actually used WordStar and Lotus123 as word processors and spreadsheet applications, experienced the super slow Windows 95, 98, 2000, ME (Mistake Edition, lol), and finally the culture shocking XP.For a span of a certain time, I thought my future would depend on those machines. But aside from that, I fancy answering calls for my parents if the secretary is out of her cubicle. I find telephone operators’ voices cute. Haha.And now, I’m barely out of college. I’m saying barely, cause I ain’t out of it yet, technically speaking. I was first choosy where to look for work, but as my dough runs out, each day I was getting desperate than yesterday to have a job that would suffice my needs.There was one night, when I came home around 11pm. I was too tired to eat so I went to bed and rest. I wasn’t really sleepy and it came across my mind – “What do I really want?”The answers came the next day when I woke up. I just want to be useful, not useless. I wanted to help, to be progressive not idle.I want to have my own place, my own things and give my family a better life. Vague description right? Some say, it’s being materialistic, but I say it’s my way of setting goals. I know I can do better, when I see something done.So much for bumming around. 

…since the last time I wrote something seriously. There was so much that has been going on in real life – so much that I have to abandon this virtual space of mine. Well, I’m glad to be back. So, a quick roll on what happened to me – for the last 2 months.My daughter was hospitalized for 6 days – i was so grateful she recovered quickly. She’s still taking medications right now, but hopefully, she’ll bounce after 3 more months. Just three more, baby.I finally get to work. Though I won’t say yet where my work is, I’m just glad that every morning I wake up from the day I was hired was a makeup day for the bummer days I’ve spent. Yee-hah!!!I saw Judith Kay last March 1. And golly, she definitely gained weight!! Well, she really deserves it. Go girl!Won’t fill you up on my love life’s drama. That’s reserved for TV already. Hahaha. No, really, I won’t blog much about it anymore.Less info, less talks, no gossips.